A flower vase I
am; and a very fragile one. “You I create,” said the potter, “with patience
galore so you will patiently bear all that comes your way.”
But why me? What is it that I have to
endure? You couldn’t have created me to tell me this.
And he placed
me on the shelf, among infinite other vases, all for sale. I shrivelled up as I
looked around. Each urn was an epitome of beauty and strength, made from the
best clay and least susceptible to any harm. I was so envious; I swelled up in
hatred towards the potter.
Let me see you all before I am taken
away.
I tiptoed to
the edge of my stand where I was put on display and bent over. Jealousy had
already crept in and anger tugged me hard. But I looked at each of my neighbours
with admiration filling my bosom at the insane beauty all around me. It was so
claustrophobic and I felt stifled and belittled by the unjust hands of my
creator. I strove to break free from this strangulation and cursed out loud
throwing myself down, on the bare stone floor of the potter’s hut.
From the other
end of his wheel, he smiled at me.
I see the smirk, potter. You knew I would
do myself harm. You saw me edging towards it and you never got up to hold me as
I fell. Now take your sympathies away. I have provided you the sadistic
pleasure that you had sought to derive by creating me.
I felt my end
hovering above. I closed my eyes; I knew I must have been in a million pieces.
Potter picked me up in his arms and carried me to what seemed like the place
where I was going to be laid to rest. But he was caressing me and I passed out.
When I opened my eyes, I was there again – on the same shelf.
“I created you
to be different and you never understood that. You forgot that I am here,
always looking over you.”
But I pain all over, potter.
“I know you are
in pain but you are not in pieces. All you have is a deep crack which I have
sealed. But it shall remain, cutting across your chest and into your heart,
till one day your true master shall take you away and heal your pain. Now smile
my dear vase and lie in wait of that day.”
Who will he be? How will I know if he is
the one? Don’t walk away potter, tell me when…how long…
He got me home.
I was so scared. Everything was so new for me; I had never been out of the
potter’s hut. And here was I, surrounded no more by vases but by people who filed
in to see me. I saw them irking behind the multitudinous veils of compliments
that they showered on me. Each tried to stuff me with a stem and no one noticed
I could take no more. I was a pretty vase, filled up with pretty flowers.
My master came
by. He placed me on the window sill where all could see me from afar but only
he could touch. The chilly wind blew and rattled my crack to the core.
Please shut the window, master. Please place
me someplace else. You know how deeply I am cracked; I will fall apart.
“I will keep
you safe. You are now possessed by me,” my master said.
But take away the flowers that fill me up
please. They scrape my skin.
“This I cannot
help. Ask something else and it shall be yours.”
Each passing
day my master admired how well I pleased all but he never said a word to me.
Each day he came to me and adorned me with another pretty red rose, its thorns
slicing through my veins. I cried out to him but he said he loved me so. He
believed in me; that I would suffer everything for him. How could I refuse him?
The wind was
very strong that day. They spread out their petals and romanced every gust that
came in. I pleaded with them to stay still. My crack widening with every
movement they made, now for all to see but not seen.
They wouldn’t
listen; they did not care. I called out to my master; I called out to my
potter. I cried out loud. I heard a slap across my face. Was it the gutsy wind
or my master? I will never know. And I was in pieces. Wide awake this time and
feeling every bit of me grazing the marble floor of my master’s home.
He cupped my
wounds and he held me tight. He was a stranger and shall always remain thus.
When I woke to
darkness and death, he was there kneeling beside me and picking up my shattered
remains. He wrapped me up in the shirt he wore and carried me home. He glued me
back but I was too hurt. He never asked why; he never asked who. He looked at
me and told me he knew.
“If I ever hurt
you, let me be cursed. Step out with me, and I wish I can show you a different
world.”
Promises?
He did not
move; he held me tight in his palms. I knew he would wait till he was sure I do
not break again. He knew not but he had touched the deep crack in me and it no
more was.
The scar will stay but I know you can
take it away. Claim me once and I shall be yours.
But he couldn’t
stay; he had to go. He had a life to lead and promises to keep.
I am just a
vase to him; a broken vase that he had unknowingly healed. Just one of the many
vases that he picks up; some he loves and some he keeps. But I am not one of
those for I choose to walk away. This I will do for him for this is the only
thing he asked in return. I have to go back to my potter and there I shall
stay, till I find not my master this time but till I turn to rubble and am cast
away.
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